[Chuuya gives him a bit of a doubtful look at that.]
And being friendly to a few people means anything else I've done no longer counts?
[It's not like Chuuya feels bad about his life of crime, either. But he also knows he's not exactly an expert on morality, considering the people he's learned from, and the fact that he never really had a chance at a different kind of life. He sees it more as another method of controlling people than anything else.
But Dazai is right: There are more important things. Dazai leans in close, and Chuuya can't resist, closing that distance without really thinking about it and kissing him softly. It's really one of his favorite things. But he likes this game, too, so he pulls away again just a little too quickly, leaving the same amount of bare-there space between them as Dazai had.]
You could deserve a lot of things. You just have to figure out how to earn them.
[Which is about as far as Dazai cares to continue on that particular topic. He'll let Chuuya sorta-kinda-almost have that one, but only because discussions on morality are really tiresome - and Dazai isn't an expert here, so whatever. They got bigger fish to fry, or... smaller chibis to fuck, as the case may be.
Well, not necessarily right now. But Dazai is feeling oddly relaxed about the idea, regardless.
And as payback for that, Chuuya breaks the kiss just as Dazai is getting into it, so Dazai ends up moving his lips awkwardly in the air like the mackerel he is. Rude! Dazai rests his arms on the table and flops his chin down on them, sulking a little. Fine, then! No sexy kissing times!! 👿]
Earning something is the opposite of deserving it, though? If I deserve it already, I shouldn't have to earn it.
[Honestly, Dazai's reaction is incredibly satisfying. Dazai really does want to kiss him as much as Chuuya wants to kiss him.
And maybe he feels a little bit bad for teasing. He knows he shouldn't, because Dazai has definitely done worse, and will inevitably do worse again sooner rather than later. But Chuuya is also feeling a little bold. He brushes Dazai's bangs aside, leans down, presses a quick kiss to his temple.
And then drops Dazai's bangs again to make them fall over his eyes, so that Dazai won't see the way Chuuya just made himself turn bright red. He picks up his coffee cup again like a shield.]
The list of what you already deserve is pretty long, though.
[And he does mean the good things Dazai deserves.]
[Oh... Well, dammit, that was a cute kiss. Thanks, Chuu, he hates it. (Not really. He's kind of glad that his eyes are briefly hidden, really.)
Dazai straightens himself in his seat again, because while he was pretty comfortable semi-lying around, sulking overly long feels childish in a way that - somehow, right now - he doesn't like.]
Yes, yes... I'm sure you've still got a list of a few hundred punishments to put me through at some point.
[Listen, Dazai has no illusions: he's a dick, and he knows he's a dick. Whatever he "deserves" - in so far as that is even a thing that exists outside of the deluded minds of morality knights - can't be good.]
[Chuuya finishes off his coffee, but only so he can set his cup down again, pushing it away. And then he slides into Dazai's lap instead, sitting sideways across his legs, one arm around his shoulders. He leans in for another kiss, and this time it's not a tease.]
If you earn them.
[So no, those punishments are not what he thinks Dazai deserves right now. He has no doubt they'll be dicks to each other again soon, but he has a pretty strong feeling Dazai isn't going to cross any lines. Only if it's really necessary for a plan, and if it's necessary for a plan, it doesn't count. Chuuya takes Dazai's wrist and lifts it, guiding his hand to his neck, and to the collar.
He wonders how many times he's told Dazai not to yank on his collar. Not that Dazai has listened, and not that Chuuya has really wanted him to.]
You're the only one I trust with this promise.
[It's pretty embarrassing to admit, actually. He won't take it back, but maybe he can kiss Dazai again before he can respond.]
[There goes the E-word again... Dazai would be vaguely annoyed, except for the fact that Chuuya is in his lap and kissing him. That makes up for a lot - even, perhaps, for the inevitable myriad punishments that he can expect. (Because of course they are punishments... How knew that Chuuya could be secretly kinky the other way around as well?! It's not Dazai's preference, but he supposes he can indulge in an experiment or two, if it comes to that.)
Dazai has only superficial knowledge of what the collar means to Chuuya, but it's enough to feel somewhat honored by that declaration - which might lead to a smug comment or two, except that Chuuya cuts him off with another kiss. It's hard to be mad about that, so Dazai responds in kind while he hooks a finger around Chuuya's collar and strokes underneath it, ever so gently.
There are worse things than owning this, he thinks. Somehow, he doesn't even feel especially inclined to be smug anymore.
... But he may well still be, whenever he can be bothered to again.]
[Chuuya makes a pleased noise at the way Dazai strokes the skin beneath his collar, just to encourage it, just in case there was any doubt left that Chuuya's not going to resist that anymore. Well, maybe he'll resist as part of a game, if they feel like it. But not right now. For now he wants to keep kissing for several long moments.
And if Dazai is smug about the collar, then Chuuya can be smug about successfully shutting him up.]
So what do I deserve?
[Fair's fair, right? Even if Chuuya didn't actually answer when Dazai asked. But he thinks he's being pretty clear about what he's actually giving Dazai, so anything else shouldn't count.]
[Well, Dazai happens to enjoy the kissing as well, so there! They both lose! ... No, they both win, really. It's funny how that suddenly seems not only possible, but perfectly normal; even logical. Nothing has changed, and yet with the slightest shift in their relationship, everything is different.]
Hmm... a bone?
[Since Chuuya is his dog, and all. But also because Dazai is a twelve year old when it comes to the level of his jokes, and he's definitely talking about his dick. (Please get yourself some better taste in men, Chuuya...)
Kissing really was nice, though, and so Dazai decides to continue - but this time he nuzzles Chuuya's neck to mouth at where the collar is. He's taking his time, but he'll work his way up to licking underneath it soon enough.]
[Chuuya lets out a small huff of laughter, because of course Dazai answered like that. But considering how Chuuya answered, it's probably fair, and anyway, showing is much better than telling. And Dazai is very good at showing when he wants to.]
You're always giving me that... Obviously I'm even better than I thought.
[Morality wise, or in bed, or just being good for Dazai, or-- It's not important actually. Because Dazai is also very good at just straight up erasing Chuuya's entire train of thought. His arm tightens around Dazai's neck, and his free hand comes up to grip onto his other shoulder, like he's at risk for falling over otherwise, despite sitting safely in Dazai's lap, despite his perfect sense of balance.
Considering everything they've done, having Dazai mouth at his collar shouldn't feel this intimate. Chuuya tips his head back, closes his eyes.]
[Dazai knew that, could see it coming a mile away, and yet -... Knowing things tends to be little more than normal for him, to the point where it's practically boring, more often than not. But knowing this, and having Chuuya confirm it? Somehow that still tickles him.
He's a little surprised that anything at all manages that anymore these days.]
Are you sure about that~? [He's not really joking or even teasing, but he almost makes it sound that way all the same, just because he can. He sucks lightly at some normally collar-covered skin, licking over it afterwards.] We've already put your body to the test recently, you know.
[Not really, but they've spent a lot of time together, and a fair amount of that intimately. It wouldn't be at all surprising if Chuuya was getting physically uncomfortable with some things. Imagine him going back to work but being unable to sit~
Well, Dazai is mostly teasing, anyway. He's not all that concerned about Chuuya's body - but only because he knows Chuuya can take it.
And maybe he's talking about a little more than sex, too. Maybe they both are. But they're still finding their way across that new territory, so they can probably ignore all those aspects of it and just see where they end up... right?]
[They're definitely talking about more than just sex. But they can save that conversation for another time, another day, when Dazai's mouth isn't already on his skin. He has a strong suspicion that's gonna leave a hickey, and he definitely doesn't mind.]
That was supposed to test me? What an insult.
[Not that he sounds offended at all. But really, Dazai knows how much he can handle, and he has to know that they were nowhere near Chuuya's limit. Not yet. He was getting a bit sore, but he was given a body that heals quickly for a reason, and why shouldn't that reason be getting fucked by his partner however often said partner feels like it. Not to mention whatever else Dazai can come up with for him.
Speaking of:]
Do I have to give you free rein just to prove how much I can take?
[Sort of, at least. Dazai has gotten to do pretty much anything he wants several times over, and yet testing Chuuya's actual, genuine limits has never been his goal. Yes, he enjoys fucking with Chuuya as much as he likes fucking Chuuya, but that doesn't mean he'll ever do more than play hard. Just because a toy is nearly impossible to break, that doesn't mean you should actively try to break it.
Well, Chuuya has become less of a toy and more of a -... whatever-they-are, anyway.]
Breaking you has never been my goal, Chuuya.
[Somehow, it's a weird confession to make, but there ya go. They really are getting mature (or something), aren't they?]
[The question catches him a bit off guard - more of a call out than a question, really - but Chuuya doesn't hesitate for more than a second.]
True.
[What Dazai wants, Dazai can have. The idea of letting him have that power has always been a turn on, but it's become even more appealing now, when they're like this. Especially when Dazai says things like that. He wonders if Dazai knows how much easier that makes it to submit.]
Do you have to break me to test me? [Because no, that's not what Chuuya wants, either.] Or risk breaking me, I guess. There's probably other ways you can challenge me.
[There are a lot of questions here that Dazai doesn't have an answer to, nor does he want to answer them either. Breaking people isn't nearly as hard as one might think. Maybe until recently he wasn't entirely sure that he wouldn't end up trying to break Chuuya, just because he could, because he got bored, because he wanted something - anything - new.
Well, that much, at least, he's pretty sure won't happen anymore. It's a pretty strange realization, really. Much better to turn things silly again.]
That's true! [He buries his face in Chuuya's neck, not even trying to be sexy about it. But, even if he's just being silly... it feels kind of nice. His voice becomes muffled as he keeps whining.] Chuuya makes it such hard work...
[Which isn't to say that Dazai is actually going to do it, but still.]
[Not what Dazai's in the mood for, then. Chuuya wraps his arms around Dazai fully, and just drops his own head on top of Dazai's, closing his eyes. Being close like this feels good either way, and it's weird to get to do it as much as they have been, without needing to justify it, or feeling like it's not something he should allow himself to need.]
Not really impressive if it's just what my body can handle anyway.
[It's outside of his control, and not something he ever had to work for. It's easy to boast about, but not what Chuuya is most proud of, and there are other options. And for once maybe he's fine with being lazy, too.]
[What is Dazai in the mood for? Does Dazai even know himself what he's in the mood for at any given time?? He knows what he's not in the mood for quite often, but that really is another matter entirely, and it's not very exclusive.
Oh well, this is pretty nice, regardless. It really does feel good to have Chuuya be all physically clingy like this.
Which doesn't mean that Dazai won't still act childish, just because he can.]
You say that, but really you just want me to ravish you on the hotel bed while we're still here, don't you?
[There's no point in denying it. He's already a little turned on from the way Dazai teased and licked at his neck earlier, and the possessiveness behind that act, but even without that he would have been in the mood. And if he's not in the mood, it never takes much from Dazai to get him going.
And if he's not in the mood, he likes the idea of letting Dazai have him anyway.]
I said whatever you want, though. Even if that's not sex. [Chuuya can survive being horny for a while, probably.] Or if you want to be lazy, I can think of a few ways to let you really enjoy that laziness.
[It's their last day here. He's feeling needy. It's his way of making this all feel real, solidify that commitment before they leave.]
Oh? Have you finally found a conscience so you can stop forcing poor me to work?
[Not that Chuuya was ever directly able to force Dazai to do work, but Dazai is a little intrigued all the same.
Or maybe he's just feeling surprisingly good about all of this, being in a room with Chuuya sitting in his lap, close and warm and his to hold. Even if this particular vacation will be short-lived... Dazai is pretty okay with that.
He knows that what they have now won't ever go away - at least not until either of them dies, which is always a real possibility, but Dazai is mostly fine with even that. Whatever happens in the future, it can't undo what they have now.
... He's still going to suck on Chuuya's neck again, though, because he doesn't want to make this too easy for Chuuya.]
Definitely not. I said I'll be nice today, but tomorrow I'll make you work twice as hard.
[He definitely can't force Dazai to work, so it's just teasing. But Dazai does often put that effort in when it comes to destroying Chuuya in bed - he appreciates it as much as he hates it, though leaning more towards appreciating it these days. Depending on the level of torture, of course. The methods. Whether or not Dazai leaves his brain intact enough after he's done for Chuuya to even consider objecting, which, admittedly, Dazai rarely does.
So really, Chuuya appreciates it.]
There's a few things I haven't admitted to wanting to try. [A lot, really.] And now seems like a good time. [...] Dazai, you know I won't be able to hide it if you leave marks all over my neck.
[That last part comes out as a slight whine, more because he's getting turned on than because of any real objection. But they're headed back to Yokohama soon, and Chuuya will have to go into the office like that.]
Oh? I thought you were so good with makeup these days...
[So Chuuya can definitely hide those marks. Possibly. Maybe. Then again, there's a reasons (or a myriad of reasons, really, but minimizing the effect of cover-up makeup is certainly one of them) why Dazai chose the skin where the collar would rub against it.
He's not stopping either, though he does play it lightly for the moment, with a mere kiss over tortured skin.]
Chuuya-hime has been so virtuous and shy about his desires, I'm certainly curious about the many ones he must have kept hidden.
[Subtitle: you're a slut, Chuu. What have you really been hiding??]
Makeup will just get on the collar, and I don't want that on the leather.
[An excuse. Not a very good one, when it's simple enough to get makeup off high quality leather, but an excuse either way. He doesn't hate the idea of the hickey being so visible. He knows he should hide it, though, for the sake of being professional, but it's hard to care about that when Dazai doesn't let up.
He swallows. His skin is getting over-sensitized, already starting to be too much. But it's not like pain is a bad thing.]
Bet you hate the idea that I might have been able to keep a few secrets from you.
[He'll tug on Dazai's hair for calling him hime, just enough to sting. But he doesn't care about the implication that he might be a slut.]
[Wow, don't pull on Dazai's gorgeous locks! He put zero effort into those!!
Alright, he doesn't mind all that much. But if Chuuya is going to get all feisty and try to challenge him, Dazai is going to see and raise that dick. He pulls back just enough to look Chuuya straight in the eyes.]
Name one of your secret desires that I haven't figured out myself, and I will deliver, no questions asked.
[Kind of hard to say if that's a threat or a promise, but Dazai is confident that Chuuya won't surprise him. (If he does, though, the "no questions asked" was definitely a lie.) And that's fine, really! They have plenty of non-surprising but no-less-exciting things they can get up to.]
[Chuuya's cockiness falters the second Dazai meets his eyes. There's barely any distance between them, and he knows Dazai sees right through him.
But now he has to think of something. He can't just admit defeat. The ideas he had earlier definitely won't count, because they're variations of kinks Dazai definitely already knew about. Humiliation, masochism, being owned... But Dazai could argue that everything is a variation of that, and if Chuuya accepts that argument then it's definitely impossible to come up with anything new. It's anything that brings out those feelings.
That bastard really knows him too damn well.]
There's probably a few specific things you haven't thought of. [But they wouldn't surprise Dazai at all, he knows that.] And there's a lot I only like because you like it. I'd never do something like torture myself with toys if you weren't watching and pleased with the show. [A pause.] Wait, no, watching isn't that important. I like knowing I've earned my rewards.
[Maybe Dazai knew about all of that, but Chuuya hasn't liked to admit it out loud in the past. He still finds it embarrassing, when it's so incredibly telling, but maybe he shouldn't expect Dazai to come up with everything.]
Obviously that's not something you haven't figured out. You don't need to tell me. [Stop looking at him with that intense expression.] Fine, Dazai, you win. There's probably nothing. Unless I go really specific, like cockwarming while you focus on something else. Or maybe it's because I've usually fought you too much for us to do anything like that.
[Yes, Chuuya is certainly a yappy type of dog, fighting Dazai even on things he likes. But that's fine, really. Dazai has never been disappointed. Cockwarming seems nice enough, too, except for one minor detail:]
I don't want to focus on anything else now, though.
[If Dazai's intense stare was uncomfortable before, it's definitely not getting any better now. There's no malice in it, however: it is very much the look of an owner who, reasonably or unreasonably, is just a little too proud of his pet.
Going back to kissing Chuuya's neck now, because that was kind of nice.]
Still, it's a thought for the future~
[You've promised now, Chuuya! (Sort of.) No take-backsies.]
[Chuuya is definitely not the type to squirm just because Dazai stares at him a little too intensely. Dazai has that effect on other people, but Chuuya has never been impressed by it, because he's never been scared of Dazai at all. This isn't about fear, though. Dazai looks both proud and like Chuuya is his to devour, and it's a moment before Chuuya is able to get out a response.
He'd expected Dazai to be his usual levels of smug at his victory. Somehow Chuuya never gets used to being rewarded for giving in.]
Yeah. You can have that anytime you want.
[He'll definitely regret that offer, since Dazai has a talent for knowing when the worst possible time would be. But he won't take it back. He bites back a moan, that spot on his neck so sensitive now it hurts.]
I'll be able to feel that bruise when my collar rubs against it.
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And being friendly to a few people means anything else I've done no longer counts?
[It's not like Chuuya feels bad about his life of crime, either. But he also knows he's not exactly an expert on morality, considering the people he's learned from, and the fact that he never really had a chance at a different kind of life. He sees it more as another method of controlling people than anything else.
But Dazai is right: There are more important things. Dazai leans in close, and Chuuya can't resist, closing that distance without really thinking about it and kissing him softly. It's really one of his favorite things. But he likes this game, too, so he pulls away again just a little too quickly, leaving the same amount of bare-there space between them as Dazai had.]
You could deserve a lot of things. You just have to figure out how to earn them.
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[Which is about as far as Dazai cares to continue on that particular topic. He'll let Chuuya sorta-kinda-almost have that one, but only because discussions on morality are really tiresome - and Dazai isn't an expert here, so whatever. They got bigger fish to fry, or... smaller chibis to fuck, as the case may be.
Well, not necessarily right now. But Dazai is feeling oddly relaxed about the idea, regardless.
And as payback for that, Chuuya breaks the kiss just as Dazai is getting into it, so Dazai ends up moving his lips awkwardly in the air like the mackerel he is. Rude! Dazai rests his arms on the table and flops his chin down on them, sulking a little. Fine, then! No sexy kissing times!! 👿]
Earning something is the opposite of deserving it, though? If I deserve it already, I shouldn't have to earn it.
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And maybe he feels a little bit bad for teasing. He knows he shouldn't, because Dazai has definitely done worse, and will inevitably do worse again sooner rather than later. But Chuuya is also feeling a little bold. He brushes Dazai's bangs aside, leans down, presses a quick kiss to his temple.
And then drops Dazai's bangs again to make them fall over his eyes, so that Dazai won't see the way Chuuya just made himself turn bright red. He picks up his coffee cup again like a shield.]
The list of what you already deserve is pretty long, though.
[And he does mean the good things Dazai deserves.]
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Dazai straightens himself in his seat again, because while he was pretty comfortable semi-lying around, sulking overly long feels childish in a way that - somehow, right now - he doesn't like.]
Yes, yes... I'm sure you've still got a list of a few hundred punishments to put me through at some point.
[Listen, Dazai has no illusions: he's a dick, and he knows he's a dick. Whatever he "deserves" - in so far as that is even a thing that exists outside of the deluded minds of morality knights - can't be good.]
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If you earn them.
[So no, those punishments are not what he thinks Dazai deserves right now. He has no doubt they'll be dicks to each other again soon, but he has a pretty strong feeling Dazai isn't going to cross any lines. Only if it's really necessary for a plan, and if it's necessary for a plan, it doesn't count. Chuuya takes Dazai's wrist and lifts it, guiding his hand to his neck, and to the collar.
He wonders how many times he's told Dazai not to yank on his collar. Not that Dazai has listened, and not that Chuuya has really wanted him to.]
You're the only one I trust with this promise.
[It's pretty embarrassing to admit, actually. He won't take it back, but maybe he can kiss Dazai again before he can respond.]
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Dazai has only superficial knowledge of what the collar means to Chuuya, but it's enough to feel somewhat honored by that declaration - which might lead to a smug comment or two, except that Chuuya cuts him off with another kiss. It's hard to be mad about that, so Dazai responds in kind while he hooks a finger around Chuuya's collar and strokes underneath it, ever so gently.
There are worse things than owning this, he thinks. Somehow, he doesn't even feel especially inclined to be smug anymore.
... But he may well still be, whenever he can be bothered to again.]
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And if Dazai is smug about the collar, then Chuuya can be smug about successfully shutting him up.]
So what do I deserve?
[Fair's fair, right? Even if Chuuya didn't actually answer when Dazai asked. But he thinks he's being pretty clear about what he's actually giving Dazai, so anything else shouldn't count.]
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Hmm... a bone?
[Since Chuuya is his dog, and all. But also because Dazai is a twelve year old when it comes to the level of his jokes, and he's definitely talking about his dick. (Please get yourself some better taste in men, Chuuya...)
Kissing really was nice, though, and so Dazai decides to continue - but this time he nuzzles Chuuya's neck to mouth at where the collar is. He's taking his time, but he'll work his way up to licking underneath it soon enough.]
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You're always giving me that... Obviously I'm even better than I thought.
[Morality wise, or in bed, or just being good for Dazai, or-- It's not important actually. Because Dazai is also very good at just straight up erasing Chuuya's entire train of thought. His arm tightens around Dazai's neck, and his free hand comes up to grip onto his other shoulder, like he's at risk for falling over otherwise, despite sitting safely in Dazai's lap, despite his perfect sense of balance.
Considering everything they've done, having Dazai mouth at his collar shouldn't feel this intimate. Chuuya tips his head back, closes his eyes.]
You- Yeah. You can have it.
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He's a little surprised that anything at all manages that anymore these days.]
Are you sure about that~? [He's not really joking or even teasing, but he almost makes it sound that way all the same, just because he can. He sucks lightly at some normally collar-covered skin, licking over it afterwards.] We've already put your body to the test recently, you know.
[Not really, but they've spent a lot of time together, and a fair amount of that intimately. It wouldn't be at all surprising if Chuuya was getting physically uncomfortable with some things. Imagine him going back to work but being unable to sit~
Well, Dazai is mostly teasing, anyway. He's not all that concerned about Chuuya's body - but only because he knows Chuuya can take it.
And maybe he's talking about a little more than sex, too. Maybe they both are. But they're still finding their way across that new territory, so they can probably ignore all those aspects of it and just see where they end up... right?]
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That was supposed to test me? What an insult.
[Not that he sounds offended at all. But really, Dazai knows how much he can handle, and he has to know that they were nowhere near Chuuya's limit. Not yet. He was getting a bit sore, but he was given a body that heals quickly for a reason, and why shouldn't that reason be getting fucked by his partner however often said partner feels like it. Not to mention whatever else Dazai can come up with for him.
Speaking of:]
Do I have to give you free rein just to prove how much I can take?
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[Sort of, at least. Dazai has gotten to do pretty much anything he wants several times over, and yet testing Chuuya's actual, genuine limits has never been his goal. Yes, he enjoys fucking with Chuuya as much as he likes fucking Chuuya, but that doesn't mean he'll ever do more than play hard. Just because a toy is nearly impossible to break, that doesn't mean you should actively try to break it.
Well, Chuuya has become less of a toy and more of a -... whatever-they-are, anyway.]
Breaking you has never been my goal, Chuuya.
[Somehow, it's a weird confession to make, but there ya go. They really are getting mature (or something), aren't they?]
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True.
[What Dazai wants, Dazai can have. The idea of letting him have that power has always been a turn on, but it's become even more appealing now, when they're like this. Especially when Dazai says things like that. He wonders if Dazai knows how much easier that makes it to submit.]
Do you have to break me to test me? [Because no, that's not what Chuuya wants, either.] Or risk breaking me, I guess. There's probably other ways you can challenge me.
Well, I know I'm not easy to actually challenge.
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Well, that much, at least, he's pretty sure won't happen anymore. It's a pretty strange realization, really. Much better to turn things silly again.]
That's true! [He buries his face in Chuuya's neck, not even trying to be sexy about it. But, even if he's just being silly... it feels kind of nice. His voice becomes muffled as he keeps whining.] Chuuya makes it such hard work...
[Which isn't to say that Dazai is actually going to do it, but still.]
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Not really impressive if it's just what my body can handle anyway.
[It's outside of his control, and not something he ever had to work for. It's easy to boast about, but not what Chuuya is most proud of, and there are other options. And for once maybe he's fine with being lazy, too.]
Maybe I'll make it easy today. Whatever you want.
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Oh well, this is pretty nice, regardless. It really does feel good to have Chuuya be all physically clingy like this.
Which doesn't mean that Dazai won't still act childish, just because he can.]
You say that, but really you just want me to ravish you on the hotel bed while we're still here, don't you?
[It's not a complaint so much as a statement.]
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[There's no point in denying it. He's already a little turned on from the way Dazai teased and licked at his neck earlier, and the possessiveness behind that act, but even without that he would have been in the mood. And if he's not in the mood, it never takes much from Dazai to get him going.
And if he's not in the mood, he likes the idea of letting Dazai have him anyway.]
I said whatever you want, though. Even if that's not sex. [Chuuya can survive being horny for a while, probably.] Or if you want to be lazy, I can think of a few ways to let you really enjoy that laziness.
[It's their last day here. He's feeling needy. It's his way of making this all feel real, solidify that commitment before they leave.]
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[Not that Chuuya was ever directly able to force Dazai to do work, but Dazai is a little intrigued all the same.
Or maybe he's just feeling surprisingly good about all of this, being in a room with Chuuya sitting in his lap, close and warm and his to hold. Even if this particular vacation will be short-lived... Dazai is pretty okay with that.
He knows that what they have now won't ever go away - at least not until either of them dies, which is always a real possibility, but Dazai is mostly fine with even that. Whatever happens in the future, it can't undo what they have now.
... He's still going to suck on Chuuya's neck again, though, because he doesn't want to make this too easy for Chuuya.]
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[He definitely can't force Dazai to work, so it's just teasing. But Dazai does often put that effort in when it comes to destroying Chuuya in bed - he appreciates it as much as he hates it, though leaning more towards appreciating it these days. Depending on the level of torture, of course. The methods. Whether or not Dazai leaves his brain intact enough after he's done for Chuuya to even consider objecting, which, admittedly, Dazai rarely does.
So really, Chuuya appreciates it.]
There's a few things I haven't admitted to wanting to try. [A lot, really.] And now seems like a good time. [...] Dazai, you know I won't be able to hide it if you leave marks all over my neck.
[That last part comes out as a slight whine, more because he's getting turned on than because of any real objection. But they're headed back to Yokohama soon, and Chuuya will have to go into the office like that.]
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[So Chuuya can definitely hide those marks. Possibly. Maybe. Then again, there's a reasons (or a myriad of reasons, really, but minimizing the effect of cover-up makeup is certainly one of them) why Dazai chose the skin where the collar would rub against it.
He's not stopping either, though he does play it lightly for the moment, with a mere kiss over tortured skin.]
Chuuya-hime has been so virtuous and shy about his desires, I'm certainly curious about the many ones he must have kept hidden.
[Subtitle: you're a slut, Chuu. What have you really been hiding??]
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[An excuse. Not a very good one, when it's simple enough to get makeup off high quality leather, but an excuse either way. He doesn't hate the idea of the hickey being so visible. He knows he should hide it, though, for the sake of being professional, but it's hard to care about that when Dazai doesn't let up.
He swallows. His skin is getting over-sensitized, already starting to be too much. But it's not like pain is a bad thing.]
Bet you hate the idea that I might have been able to keep a few secrets from you.
[He'll tug on Dazai's hair for calling him hime, just enough to sting. But he doesn't care about the implication that he might be a slut.]
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Alright, he doesn't mind all that much. But if Chuuya is going to get all feisty and try to challenge him, Dazai is going to see and raise
that dick. He pulls back just enough to look Chuuya straight in the eyes.]Name one of your secret desires that I haven't figured out myself, and I will deliver, no questions asked.
[Kind of hard to say if that's a threat or a promise, but Dazai is confident that Chuuya won't surprise him. (If he does, though, the "no questions asked" was definitely a lie.) And that's fine, really! They have plenty of non-surprising but no-less-exciting things they can get up to.]
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But now he has to think of something. He can't just admit defeat. The ideas he had earlier definitely won't count, because they're variations of kinks Dazai definitely already knew about. Humiliation, masochism, being owned... But Dazai could argue that everything is a variation of that, and if Chuuya accepts that argument then it's definitely impossible to come up with anything new. It's anything that brings out those feelings.
That bastard really knows him too damn well.]
There's probably a few specific things you haven't thought of. [But they wouldn't surprise Dazai at all, he knows that.] And there's a lot I only like because you like it. I'd never do something like torture myself with toys if you weren't watching and pleased with the show. [A pause.] Wait, no, watching isn't that important. I like knowing I've earned my rewards.
[Maybe Dazai knew about all of that, but Chuuya hasn't liked to admit it out loud in the past. He still finds it embarrassing, when it's so incredibly telling, but maybe he shouldn't expect Dazai to come up with everything.]
Obviously that's not something you haven't figured out. You don't need to tell me. [Stop looking at him with that intense expression.] Fine, Dazai, you win. There's probably nothing. Unless I go really specific, like cockwarming while you focus on something else. Or maybe it's because I've usually fought you too much for us to do anything like that.
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I don't want to focus on anything else now, though.
[If Dazai's intense stare was uncomfortable before, it's definitely not getting any better now. There's no malice in it, however: it is very much the look of an owner who, reasonably or unreasonably, is just a little too proud of his pet.
Going back to kissing Chuuya's neck now, because that was kind of nice.]
Still, it's a thought for the future~
[You've promised now, Chuuya! (Sort of.) No take-backsies.]
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He'd expected Dazai to be his usual levels of smug at his victory. Somehow Chuuya never gets used to being rewarded for giving in.]
Yeah. You can have that anytime you want.
[He'll definitely regret that offer, since Dazai has a talent for knowing when the worst possible time would be. But he won't take it back. He bites back a moan, that spot on his neck so sensitive now it hurts.]
I'll be able to feel that bruise when my collar rubs against it.
[And that's turning him on even more.]
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